Im 13 and need some advice about my mom not being around?? please help?

I'm sorry honey, that's tough. It's good that you're mature enough to ask for the help you need. I'm sure if you wish to talk to your old counselor instead of a stranger she would be happy to accommodate you. As someone who has had trauma in their childhood I'll tell you now, sometimes its just about hanging in there when you can't do anything else. It takes time, but things will eventually get better. And it's okay to be scared. I'm 24 and sometimes all I am is scared, but I can tell you'll get through this with your friends and family.